Some days it seems there isn’t enough hot tea in the world for my life because learning to honor the slowdown and keep pace with adulting is so hard. My kettle is getting tired, but herbal tea is often my best solution for the chaos that comes through.
My life lets me live the precept:
“Treat everyone with kindness, you have no idea the fires they have burning.”
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It cannot be said enough, from the outside looking in, there is no way any of us can know what is going on inside someone else’s life. But I have also discovered that life is not an outside looking in experience anyway. Real connection and growth comes from within, asks us to define and live our values and stop caring what everyone else thinks anyway. Despite the places I’ve been and the mistakes I’ve made, I am grateful that the exposure to challenging experiences has helped me discover the well of calm and strength that lies within me and I know that although I can’t access it 100% of the time, there is no better place to parent from.
A few weeks ago I wrote about my divorce. Reflection and eight years of time passed has allowed me to grow roots that I would have never had otherwise. Now I am able to help other people navigate through these treacherous waters from a place of compassion and calm and one of the topics that comes up so often, and still daily for me, is parenting. While I believe that in some situations there are benefits of co-parenting after divorce, my experience is that authentic parenting is at the heart of healing, and sometimes we have to discover that standing on our own two feet. At the crux of this decision is having a firm understanding of what real co-parenting feels like and when the concept is being flipped and is the attempt to co-parent is actually a mechanism of control.
When my divorce took effect, my kids were ages 16-9, so I do realize there is a different reality if you are dealing with younger children. The tenet that remains the same is that the best parenting is centered around your value system and a deeply defined sense of self - if you have this you will be able to see when to co-parent and when it is being used to control a situation with the kids. That can be a tennous thing in the midst of such ground shaking change in your own life, but there are things you can do to ground yourself in reality and enhance your own self awareness and skills from listening to podcasts, taking courses, or coaching and other healing modalities that will help you find the strength to help your kids move forward and become stronger through the struggle of single parenting.
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Here are some takeaway tips that I have learned through my life path, coaching, podcast conversations and so many other healing pathways I have explored that have broadened my vision and deepened my roots so that I can parent from a place of strength. We have a podcast coming out next week that I can’t wait for you to hear with Marcus Aurelius Higgs, a Presence Coach for parents of preteens. His SHOWUP framework was rich with wisdom and practical tools for this stage of parenting. I will say, the battle is hard fought, not always won, and I am in it every single day. The stories are from inside the arena where I struggle every day, but I wouldn’t trade the experience for anything.
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Some Questions to Ask Yourself When Evaluating Whether you are Dealing with Co-parenting or Control Issues.
I’ll close with some wise words from Divorce Attorney Ann Grant from her show THE DIVORCE HACKER.
“Don’t worry about control, kids go where the love is.”
Her words ring true in any co-parenting or single parenting journey. If you are in it, I’m with you. For more of my perspective on parenting post divorce check out my Divorce Hacker episode with Ann Grant and feel free to reach out because it definitely takes a village.
With optimism,
Wendy
I wouldn’t have been able to write this eight years ago when he left. So much goes into rebuilding a life and it’s not linear. There have been many missteps and a lack of understanding of where I was at the time and why, but from the time it happened, I always had the question in my mind…how did I end up here? Divorce is hard, but staying in a relationship that isn’t healthy is worse and I believe that we go through hard things in life not just so we can grow, but also so we can help other people.
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I never knew that burnout after divorce was so prevalent but it makes sense to me now. After such a life throttling event, we are susceptible to the complete mental, physical and emotional exhaustion that defines burnout. When you can’t engage or find joy in things that used to be meaningful it’s past time to take an assessment of where you are and how to bring connection back into your life. For me it has involved holding myself to a standard of productivity in a quest to try and find myself that led me to the deep exhaustion that defines burnout. True healing is found in the ability to understand when to push and when to rest, all the while being present enough to bring focus to the circumstances that life brings us that we can’t control. For me, with four kids that I love more than anything in this world, that is a lot of circumstance! Especially if you are the core parent. It is so important that you begin to heal, so you can help them from a place of strength. There is so much that is dropped into your world that you have to handle on your own, so carving out time for yourself to be able to rest, think and feel is paramount in this process.
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Through trial and error and over the last eight years walking this path, I have discovered some processes and philosophies that help mitigate burnout, even on the days when it feels like the walls around you are crumbling. In fact, sometimes the walls crumbling is a good thing…it just takes some time to see that. So if you are in the beginning stages of a breakup or divorce, and especially if you are parenting kids through it, I hope some of these thoughts will help.
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Beyond that I would be remiss to say if you can invest in this process, acupuncture, infrared saunas, massage and body work like Rolfing, somatic work and talk therapy are all amazing ways to learn to regulate your nervous system and so you are able to integrate your body, mind and spirit and heal. Most of all, find healthy ways to learn to honor your feelings without getting trapped in any stories that your mind is telling you. There is always a way through, if you are willing to slow down and look and listen for it and from this place you will find a whole new flow.
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Wendy Jones with her youngest son, Matthew.
The truth is, we can’t make up for the hurt that divorce causes, we can only show our kids how to heal and become healthy again. Spoiling them with attention, money, things, lack of consequences only perpetuates the agony for them and burns you out as a parent. Depending on custody arrangements you contend with different things, but whether you are split custody or the full time parent, learning to be your child's ally in the quest for their highest potential instead of their friend is invaluable. The best things take time to develop, including helping a child grow into an adult who isn’t entitled, needs instant gratification and understands how to regulate their own emotions. For more parenting perspectives, head over to the Be Better Media’s Youtube: Parenting Playlist.
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I pass a wall everyday after yoga that has the words “You Are Enough” painted on it. Sometimes I still wrestle with it, but more often than not now, it resonates deep and I find my flow through life’s ups and downs that I never would have imagined I would know how to handle. With each challenge, I see the Divine footprint in it all, and it calms me. What the art on the wall doesn’t have the space to say is by understanding that you are enough you unlock the journey to authenticity that is the true meaning of your new beginning. Authenticity is the true antidote to burnout, breathe it in, follow your heart, and find your bliss. You are worth it.
With optimism,
Wendy